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UC applications came out this week. I haven't registered a username yet.

Last year, I filled out an application but never submitted it.

If I get into my major here, I'll graduate a year early. If I transfer, I'm looking at possibly another year somewhere else.

Another year, another set of loans.

I don't want to be a fifth year. I feel like I'm over 'college'. I want to get away from being a student.

But then I'm questioning a lot of things about my education. If I graduate a year early, what do I do then?

What happens after?

Do I keep going to school?

Do I start applying for jobs that I'll be stuck with for the rest of my life?

Loans. Gotta start paying those off, too.

I feel like it should scare me. The fact that once I go, I'll be gone should terrify me.

But it doesn't. Even though I don't have much a direction right now, I feel like wherever I land, I'll take root and do extraordinarily well, just as I do with everything else.

I feel like I need to devote myself to something new.