movement

apps are due in a week. i haven't started.

let's elaborate on this. getting involved here at ucla has been nothing but positive. very positive. i'm making friends. i'm making mistakes. i'm having experiences. i've reverted in maturity because i was tired of being different.

i think being a part of a team has changed me the most, though. i've never been a team player. i've never relied on, or wanted to rely on anybody else. i've scoffed at displays of collective joy and work because i saw those people as weak, as needing to find a sense of family on their own because they couldn't part away from that.

i prided myself on the fact that i could live without family. i loved my family, yes, but i was able to fly on my own. function on my own. i had a taste of what family was like with you, but when i lost that, i needed to find that sense of family elsewhere.

i think being on modern is quickly filling that gap. i love dancing. even more, i love dancing with people. i like the idea of performing and even if the rest of the world looks down on us, i'm still having an amazing experience.

so i guess i feel like it's okay that i may not send in those applications.